And So It Goes...

And So It Goes...

I know that many of you have noticed that we are getting yarn dyed and back up on the website... it always takes a while after the sale and after a show (Stitches West) but we haven't been talking about other things particularly.

      

The winter, even though it was not a hard one weather-wise, has been challenging for me after Ron's death in November. Ron had been not well for a while. I always knew it was likely that he would go before me since he was older than me and had more health problems, but I never really thought about after he was gone and how I would navigate this part of my life.

It took me awhile to do most of the paperwork. Something inside of me said, well if you don't change the name on the bank account then he's still with me and it's not final. And so it went with every kind of documentation and legal stuff. It's not all done, but I am walking through it one step at a time.

Going out on the road to Stitches West was difficult. I could lie and say it was great to be back in the saddle, but the truth is, I was not ready for it. I was still very sad. I hated to leave my dogs at home, to be away from the home Ron and I had made together. It may not make logical sense, but the emotions were still very raw.

Today (Saturday) was going along good until I was talking to the butcher at the grocery store about wanting some cuts they didn't have, and tearing up because I need smaller cuts, and smaller amounts. I don't really need roasts anymore. The smallest thing can bring the changes in my life right to the surface. 

I am grateful for the change in the seasons, the time, and the length of daylight each day. I also love that I am sitting here writing this with the door open letting fresh air in.

What has changed in the last few weeks is that my color brain seems to have turned back on. I am now envisioning new colors, new color combinations, and ways to make things fun and interesting for our customers. I know that this loss and my grieving process will be close to the surface for a good long while, but I am grateful to have made a leap back toward breathing regularly again. (And things are blooming again!)

 

I think I am ready to start blogging more regularly again about the studio and what is going on. Thank you everyone for your prayers and thoughts. I do greatly appreciate your warmth and support.

Periwinkle

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Sharon

Sharon

Thank you for sharing this with us. I admire you so much and I’m glad you let go of some of the shows last year so you could spend more time with family. After reading the comments on this blog post, I can see that you have a lovely fan base. I hope you can feel our love and support.

Peace…

Kim

Kim

A wise person told me this at the memorial service for my dad: I will pray and send you love and support for the next year of holidays, birthdays, season changes as each season and event will bring new opportunities for you to grieve and heal. After that year, you will be ready to move forward anew. While I do not know you personally, i do adore your yarn. I look forward to your new color creations born out of this season of healing. Peace to you. Kim

Kim

Kim

A wise person told me this at the memorial service for my dad: I will pray and send you love and support for the next year of holidays, birthdays, season changes as each season and event will bring new opportunities for you to grieve and heal. After that year, you will be ready to move forward anew. While I do not know you personally, i do adore your yarn. I look forward to your new color creations born out of this season of healing. Peace to you. Kim

Cori

Cori

Thank you for sharing. Thoughts and prayers are with you.

Joanne Giberson

Joanne Giberson

Thanks for sharing this, Babs. Love and prayers for rainbows for you!
Love and Hugs,
Joanne

Barbara

Barbara

Just wanted you to know my thoughts and prayers are with you. I lost my husband of 43 years very suddenly 18 months ago so I understand where you are at. Some days are wonderful and some days i’m right back to square one. Don’t hesitate to contact me if you need someone to vent to at anytime.

Judy

Judy

My thoughts and prayers are with you. I tried typing words of comfort, but they sound so hollow. Hugs.

Esther

Esther

Even though we know life on this earth ends, it’s never easy to accept the effects when it comes. Know that Ron and God are watching over you. Reflect on all your memories to help you through each day. Also know that prayers and lots of love are with you. I love and appreciate you more than words can express. ?❤️?

Raquel from JC

Raquel from JC

I pray you find the peace of mind you need. Losing your life partner must be like losing half of yourself, but with the help of God, your family, friends, your dogs and the beauty of the world I’m sure you’ll be able to continue and find yourself again.

Liza

Liza

So very sorry. Sending love, hugs, and prayers.

Mitzi

Mitzi

Deepest sympathies praying God’s comfort for you during this difficult time

Sheila Scott

Sheila Scott

Sending you my best wishes during this difficult time. I’m glad you felt well enough to share your thoughts.

 CJ

CJ

I’m so sorry to hear this and I’m sending all my love. I connect so much with those little things that cause us to well up and shut down. Take care of you and remember to be gentle with yourself. ?

Debbi

Debbi

This grieving process has no timeline. It will come in waves when you least expect it. Take good care of you and know that you are loved by many.

Bryson

Bryson

So sorry for your loss. Treasure your memories. I look forward to seeing you at MD Sheep & Wool and Fibre Space.

Karen

Karen

Miss Babs, I’m so sorry that Ron has passed. I hope the good memories and your colorful work helps to ease the ache.

Pat Leventhal

Pat Leventhal

I have found in dealing with grief that it ebbs and flows just like the tides. The loss of parents, even after illnesses, was devastating. The strangest things would result in breaking down in tears. The first Thanksgiving without my Dad, in 1989, I put out the creamed onions only to realize they were his favorite and we only made the, for him. Get out the tissues, we all had a good cry and then each told a story about Dad. The one thing I have realized is grief doesn’t have a timetable. I lost a dear friend a year ago. I still think I’ll share something with him only to realize I can’t. That hurts. My thoughts and prayers go out to you as you go forward. Thank you for sharing with us.

Margaret

Margaret

Dear Miss Babs, You have been on my mind since your loss. Please know how much we all care about you and are truly saddened by Ron’s death. Thank you for being the artist you are and take things slowly. Sending you prayers for comfort.

Heather Latham

Heather Latham

Bless your heart honey…we stitch bitches are a stick-together group, who support you in your grief. It will be this way for at least a year. Allow yourself to grieve and know that, even though we have never met, we all grieve with you! Get out into the sunlight a bit and let your creativity work toward healing your heart. From North Carolina, we send our love and prayers!

Cindy Room

Cindy Room

I’m so sorry to hear about your loved one being gone and it truly hasn’t been that long ago. I hope fond memories help you heal. Much love to you! ??

Elizabeth Keller

Elizabeth Keller

Dear Miss Babs, my thoughts are with you. Thank you for sharing with us. I met you a few years ago at both STITCHES Midwest and Grayslake IL. Your color talent is exceptional. Please take as much time as you need to begin to heal from your loss. Sincerely, Colorfulknitter, WI.

Ann

Ann

Many hugs for your loss. Losing a loved one is so hard. I’m glad that you’re moving forward a step at a time. That is how I’ve moved on through my grief. Love your yarns and colors so much. I’m glad that to see that work is helping you.

Arlene

Arlene

Met you at an event a few years ago and was struck by how kind and friendly you were.

I am so very sorry to hear of your loss. Wishing you timely healing and the ability to keep your memories close.
Betty

Betty

As many others I did not know of his passing, my heart goes out to you and I pray you heal. Thank you for the joy you bring to us, we love all you do, Betty

Linda

Linda

That you can write so eloquently about how you are feeling shows great strength.

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