Continued - A Year in Time

Continued - A Year in Time

This is a difficult subject for me to talk about, but as you will be seeing pictures in the future from an obviously different location I need to talk about a significant change that has occurred for me, for my team, and for the business.

Right before Ron passed last year, I bought some land and we (Ron and I) signed the mortgage on a new building 3 days before he died. Please know that this is a difficult blog post for me to write. The past few weeks have been enlightening as I finally dig deep to understand feelings I have been having and trying to understand my own behavior. This is  a work in progress.

During the past 8 or so months, we've been building a new studio home for Miss Babs Hand Dyed Yarns. We finally moved late last week. The space we have been in was built to handle about 5 people. We have a few more employees than that now and it has been a life of "scuse me", bumping butts, scraping shins on bins and pots, and so on for longer than any of us cares to admit. The new space means that this is no longer happening. We can each have an adequate work space that actually maintains our personal space as well.

It also means that we are no longer on my home property where the business started and grew and thrived thanks to all of you. I was able to be at home all through Ron's last years and available to make sure he was safe and secure. Working from home and keeping our home was a promise I made to him in 2008 when things started getting significantly worse for him, requiring his retirement.  

So this change means I will now be driving to work, instead of walking across the driveway. It means that the dogs will come some of the time - they will have a fence and a gated area in the building where they can be without being in the yarn. What I finally figured out in the last few weeks is that while I was able to help plan everyone else's work areas, I couldn't think about my space. I was ignoring that I was avoiding my work spaces, and then it hit me in the face. I am/was having trouble with the whole issue of leaving Ron here. (I know he's dead.) When you've been doing something reflexively for years, it is difficult to change your brain, your habits, your daily routines. And that is what I have been doing. 

And all of these emotions explain why I have not wanted to talk about any of this publicly.

But besides all of my personal emotions --

  • We have needed a better space to work in.
  • I have needed separation from work.
  • My employees need a workspace that is not someone else's home and personal space.

Everyone has been wonderful over the years in helping maintain boundaries between home and work, but it just filters in. The coffee pot was in my kitchen, the undyed yarn was in my first studio that was part of the house, the meeting room was my dining room table area, and so on. 

In moving to a new location, I do not expect that we will make more yarn, but that it will allow new things to happen. Change simply brings change. We will be trying new dye styles, new color combinations, new projects, and so on. This will happen over time, not all at once. We will not have a retail location at the new studio and expect to continue our policy of no visitors.

This will not be the last time I write of Ron. He and I supported each other without end. He was the person I most trusted in the world, that had my back when no one else needed to or wanted to, he loved me through all that we went through together. His birthday is coming this week and is just one more first I am going through this week. I still can't figure out what to get him for his birthday, never could. So I guess the new studio will have to be it.

Here are some pictures of the new studio.

I love decks and I love windows that really open!

We have a real Break Room!

Yarn waiting to be twisted and labeled!

 

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Susan

Susan

The Year of Magical Thinking by Joan Didion might be helpful to you Joan wrote it after losing her husband.

Karen

Karen

What a wonderful post. I just want to give you a hug. You are an amazing woman & I hope happy memories help you through all these new transitions. And thank you for sharing. It’s not always easy, but it helps to have friends to listen so your burden can be lightened.

Judy Laquidara

Judy Laquidara

Of course I didn’t know Ron but I smiled reading this . . knowing that this birthday present is something that would thrill him. Seeing you move forward, though painfully, has to make him proud. Thanks for sharing a bit of it with us.

Ellen donohoe

Ellen donohoe

I also wanted to let you know I know how you feel my mother died almost nine years ago and I still see things I want to tell her or just sit and talk. It does get easier but it takes time and lots of support. It also helps that you have all that yummy yarn to play with and mix beautiful colors for. Congratulations on the new building too!!???

Hollie Giampietro

Hollie Giampietro

So sorry for this very painful time in ur life. The new head quarters for Miss Babs is beautiful. I love ur yarn. On line & at the Sheep & Wool festival in Maryland. Take care!

Sonja Sokol

Sonja Sokol

You are loved! Thank you for sharing. Good luck on your new location. Prayers for peace and comfort as you continue your amazing business and remember your Ron in your heart! Hope to see you at SAFF in October!!

Anne Rooney

Anne Rooney

Thank you for sharing your story with us. I can’t begin to imagine what this year has been like for you. I want you to remember that just because you are moving into a new space it doesn’t negate all that Ron did for you and was to you. You are able to move forward because he was a part of this journey you are on that we call life. Embrace the new space! Go home and cry when you need to! And then keep moving toward your good. I am sooo looking forward to more yarn, more colors, and more creativity! Best of luck in the new space!

Dawn

Dawn

What a lovely new workspace and such a tribute to Ron’s memory. Thank you for sharing and I hope that it was somewhat cathartic for you to share. I know that was tough. May you build wonderful, happy memories in the new workspace with your fantastic team and know that you are simultaneously honoring Ron in the process.
You are so loved and much supported by the fiber loving community.

Betty Fay Wallace

Betty Fay Wallace

Goodness! What a tough time you have had. The loss of a loved one is such a difficult burden to bear. Your new studio is beautiful. I hope it brings you as much joy as your gorgeous yarn brings to others.

Janet Barnes

Janet Barnes

Dearest Miss Babs, Thank you for sharing. having lost my youngest grand daughter, I can tell you that grief takes time, lots and lots of time. Give yourself that, know that it changes, but it is a part of who you are now. My Macenzie visits us in butterflies and sunsets and unusual wildlife encounters. I pray for you the best in your new studios, a comforting rhythm in your work and sweet fellowship with your fellow dyers. Blessings!! Janet

Lu

Lu

Thanks for sharing about Ron as well as the pics of the new place. When I am knitting people always say what yarn or you using and everyone always says “BABS”. Lol. I feel honored that they always say that bc I know the yarn I am using is the best.

MagdaMakes

MagdaMakes

Wow! I am certain Ron will love his birthday present! Wishing you peace and hope as you navigate this difficult time.

Mary Lee Cerillo

Mary Lee Cerillo

Thank you so much for sharing about the loss of your beloved husband Ron. I am so sorry for your loss this past year. I am sure he would have loved your new space and it is a wonderful birthday gift.

Betty Jones

Betty Jones

Love your new studio/work space! It is simple and well designed. I think Ron would have loved it, too, and would be proud that you are moving on with the dream. The finished studio is a fine birthday gift and memorial to Ron’s love and support for you and that dream. Go Miss Babs!

Ingrid

Ingrid

I am so sorry for your loss… I had no idea. But congratulations on your new adventure. May time bring you peace and contentment with all the changes. You have built a wonderful company and product!! Hug yourself, Babs… you’re a strong woman!

Gerry

Gerry

Thank you for sharing this experience. I look forward to the creativity that is sure to awaken in your new space. Peace to you.

Pat Stankiewicz

Pat Stankiewicz

I’m so sorry for your loss, and I wish you a future of healing and love. Surround yourself with good people – it helps no matter what stage of life you’re in. Writing and talking will help. I wish you more success as your business grows. The new place looks wonderful, and I hope you post more pictures as you settle in and make it your own!

Jill McKibben

Jill McKibben

The new space is lovely and this post is too. I feel your pain and sense of loss. Just know that every time you talk or write or share your grief over the loss of your dear Ron, it cuts the pain in half. No, it will never go away, but the hurt will get better and good memories will rise to the surface more easily.

Jil from nj

Jil from nj

So sorry my emoji heart showed up as a “?”. What brave words. All the best with your new grounds. My sister boasts about your yarns. I will be looking for you — maybe at Rhinebeck? ❤️

Jil from nj

Jil from nj

So sorry my emoji heart showed up as a “?”. What brave words. All the best with your new grounds. My sister boasts about your yarns. I will be looking for you — maybe at Rhinebeck? ❤️

Jil from nj

Jil from nj

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KnittyKat2

KnittyKat2

So many changes in your life. No not all of them good. You all have grown a wonderful business and life. This new space was meant to be. Thank you for sharing this with us. I know I will continue to use your wonderful hand dyed yarns. I pray you will find a new peace in your life. You can now go home and relax in your great memories of Ron and what you grew together.

Luanne Garcia

Luanne Garcia

Thank you for sharing this with us…I hope it helps your healing process to write!!! One thing to remember…you’re not leaving Ron at home…he’s always right there with you, in your heart!! Hugs and congrats on the beautiful new shop!!!

Lynn J

Lynn J

I had no idea you have suffered such a loss and trying to continue on afterwards. Bless your heart and soul because you are obviously now beginning your healing journey. No one can truly appreciate unless they have walked in similar shoes. There is new promise, forgiveness and coming to terms. Bless you as you walk forward. Good for you for being your authentic self. Ron is proud of you. Embrace your dreams he enters into. Love continues to surround you! I think its fair to say we all hug you and wish you only the best!

Dana Lohman

Dana Lohman

Thank you for sharing. When you described your close quarters, it amazed me how quickly I would get my yarn orders. I have created so many beautiful things with your yarn — and so have you! Thank you for every fiber and every color.

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