Continued - A Year in Time

Continued - A Year in Time

This is a difficult subject for me to talk about, but as you will be seeing pictures in the future from an obviously different location I need to talk about a significant change that has occurred for me, for my team, and for the business.

Right before Ron passed last year, I bought some land and we (Ron and I) signed the mortgage on a new building 3 days before he died. Please know that this is a difficult blog post for me to write. The past few weeks have been enlightening as I finally dig deep to understand feelings I have been having and trying to understand my own behavior. This is  a work in progress.

During the past 8 or so months, we've been building a new studio home for Miss Babs Hand Dyed Yarns. We finally moved late last week. The space we have been in was built to handle about 5 people. We have a few more employees than that now and it has been a life of "scuse me", bumping butts, scraping shins on bins and pots, and so on for longer than any of us cares to admit. The new space means that this is no longer happening. We can each have an adequate work space that actually maintains our personal space as well.

It also means that we are no longer on my home property where the business started and grew and thrived thanks to all of you. I was able to be at home all through Ron's last years and available to make sure he was safe and secure. Working from home and keeping our home was a promise I made to him in 2008 when things started getting significantly worse for him, requiring his retirement.  

So this change means I will now be driving to work, instead of walking across the driveway. It means that the dogs will come some of the time - they will have a fence and a gated area in the building where they can be without being in the yarn. What I finally figured out in the last few weeks is that while I was able to help plan everyone else's work areas, I couldn't think about my space. I was ignoring that I was avoiding my work spaces, and then it hit me in the face. I am/was having trouble with the whole issue of leaving Ron here. (I know he's dead.) When you've been doing something reflexively for years, it is difficult to change your brain, your habits, your daily routines. And that is what I have been doing. 

And all of these emotions explain why I have not wanted to talk about any of this publicly.

But besides all of my personal emotions --

  • We have needed a better space to work in.
  • I have needed separation from work.
  • My employees need a workspace that is not someone else's home and personal space.

Everyone has been wonderful over the years in helping maintain boundaries between home and work, but it just filters in. The coffee pot was in my kitchen, the undyed yarn was in my first studio that was part of the house, the meeting room was my dining room table area, and so on. 

In moving to a new location, I do not expect that we will make more yarn, but that it will allow new things to happen. Change simply brings change. We will be trying new dye styles, new color combinations, new projects, and so on. This will happen over time, not all at once. We will not have a retail location at the new studio and expect to continue our policy of no visitors.

This will not be the last time I write of Ron. He and I supported each other without end. He was the person I most trusted in the world, that had my back when no one else needed to or wanted to, he loved me through all that we went through together. His birthday is coming this week and is just one more first I am going through this week. I still can't figure out what to get him for his birthday, never could. So I guess the new studio will have to be it.

Here are some pictures of the new studio.

I love decks and I love windows that really open!

We have a real Break Room!

Yarn waiting to be twisted and labeled!

 

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115 comments

So sorry for your loss. This is time of lots of transition for you. Your new location is beautiful and I’m sure that Ron has been with you every step of the way. He is looking over every aspect of the business and you. And I’m sure he is proud of what you have accomplished on your own. Continued luck in this lovely business you have. The new space will take on a special meaning for you. and the dogs will enjoy their new space as well! Hugs to you and your family.

Dianne

I have been attending the Maryland sheep and wool festival for several years now and marvel at your yarns, patterns and popularity! I am sorry for your loss. Just proves that so often, others do not know what you are dealing with on a day to day basis. Your nee headquarters looks great! I wish you and your employees continued success!

Linda Fischer

Thank you for writing about your life after your husband passed away.

My wonderful husband Butch passed away Sep. 4, 2017. The last 8 weeks have been awful. Oct. 28th was our 50th wedding anniversary and tomorrow, Oct. 31st would have been his 73rd. birthday. I have been just sitting, crying, knitting and doing nothing just like you did. I hope I am able to get back to doing things too even though right now that seems impossible. The tears never seem to stop.

I love your yarn. I wanted to go to Rheinbeck, NY this year but I have trouble walking. My goal is to get there next year and purchase your yarn in person.. Keep up the fantastic job.

Knittingly yours,
Daina Sprague

Daina Sprague

I can’t imagine life without my husband of 24 years. I know I would keep up what I do, and enjoy myself, but he is my right hand and many times, my left as well. The hard days, the days you just want to bury yourself in anything, are the days that you need to take a step back and breathe. Many hugs to you and it’s time I unpacked my three sweaters worth of your yarn and knit it. I’ve been hoarding it and it’s time to make my husband and myself a sweater.

Nancy Liedel

What a wonderful
Loving carin personal
Story and thank you for sharing such an intimate part of your life
It makes everything I love about you and what you do even more special
Thank you!!!

Katie

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